I had an Ellie solo day today (Matt had the 3 other kids). It was a super busy day on the ward with 3 fresh babies just admitted. I managed to get an hour of grumpy hugs. She pooed about 5mins into it and being nearly 4 months old, hates having a dirty nappy.
Ellie’s CPAP pressure was reduced today (a good thing), as was her morphine – assuming she doesn’t get too cranky she will be off that tomorrow. She is once again on more milk and less TPN (intravenous food). And the best news of all she finally smiled at me today! After smiling at doctors, nurses and for photos I finally got about 3 in the space of 5 minutes.
I just reread a card I received about two weeks ago. I can remember reading it and feeling strengthened, tonight I read it and felt a calmness and knowledge. One of the quotes in it reads:
“I do not at all understand the mystery of grace-only that it meets us where we are but does not leave us where it found us.” (Anne Lamott)
My understanding of this has exponentially increased in the last few weeks.