Today was a bit of an eye opener for me (Daddy day at the hospital). Since Ellie’s big crash on the 11th of June I have been very reserved in my hope for her future. Even though Ellie has defied every negative prediction so far, a big part of me has prepared for the worst while trying to remain strong.
After seeing Ellie today, it almost felt like she had a mission to break me out of that mindset today. There were a number of things that broke me down slowly:
- Giving her two full bottles today that she drank easily and reminded me of Hungry Hannah as she gulped them down
- She was looking around at the world with such interest and interacting with me
- She cries just like Hannah now (nice and loud)
- There was one moment when I tried to burp her and he was not happy about it and stood up on my lap in protest (her legs are really strong!)
To drive the point home even more Ellie got evicted from Level 3! Even though we feel like she may not be totally ready for this, she was the strongest bubba on Level 3 and with an emergency delivery coming this afternoon she was wheeled down the corridor into the next section of the ICU. She had been in that one spot for the last 4 months, her whole existence, so it feels like a big deal that she has moved a few meters down the hospital hall.
Her next big step is to get off her high flow, today she went down to a pressure of 4 which they said would be the last step before getting off.